Saturday, February 05, 2011


While doing an inductive bible study on Matthew I came across a quote regarding baptism that truly touched my soul. I have been told throughout my life different analogies on baptism .
1. Baptism is an outward showing of an inward change
2. When we are baptized we go down into a watery grave to die from our sinful life and are reborn a new person in Christ.
While researching Matthew 3:1-17 I read on "The root meaning of baptize is to immerse so that what is dipped takes on the qualities of what it has been dipped in."
After reading this I imagined myself as a brass ring that was dipped in gold. I have now taken on the characterics of gold. Outwardly to people looking at me I am gold. This is how I see water baptism that John the baptist did. John B. also spoke of One who will "baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire." After accepting and water baptism, through studying God's word and allowing Jesus to work on my heart my jesus will baptize my heart, soul and life with the Holy Spirit and fire to purify me and get rid of the brass so I will emerge pure gold. Through Christ I will come forth as pure gold not just an imitation.

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

Romancing a Bad Relationship

I have talked to several women lately and have started noticing a theme. Some women romance a bad relationship. If your man left you 3 times in 2 years with excuses such as "i gonna break up with you so that i don't cheat on you". If he sleeps with another woman, do not respect him for sparing you. He wanted to be with another and he knew that you are weak and will understand his reasoning. If you leave him stop talking to him and saying to yourself that "this is best we have talked in a long time". You are not in front of him and he will say anything he knows you want to hear to get you back. And yes he knows what you want to hear because you screamed it at him with every argument. So Ladies here is my opinion. Stop srewing yourselves in the head reading romance noveols and watching twilight. Your lives do not have to have drama/flowers to be romantic. I think it is romantic when my husband gets up in the morning takes a motrin and a sudafed because he is sick and aching and goes to work to support his family. I get horny when I come outside after working a night shift in the winter to find that he got up early and scraped my windows and warmed my car. Oh my goodness the new brakes on the truck bout drove me crazy. This is romance, my man showing me that he cares about me and his children. If he is bad for you today he will be bad tomorrow.

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Starting from now

I am starting from now.  I will be a better Mother.  I will be a better wife.  I will be a better nurse.  I will be a better person. I will read and study God’s words daily.  I will eat more healthy and take care of myself. 

Starting from now I will not look back and criticize myself for the mistakes that I have made I will only praise myself the the good that I am doing and will do for others and myself.

Monday, August 25, 2008

Dad's never let their daughter leave.

I was recently thinking. I was looking at my husband and my 12 year old daughter and reveling in their relationship. I see the way that he cries when he thinks that she is not looking. I also see the way that he gives her things when he thinks that I am not looking. She loves that fact that he does not want her to leave him ever, not to college or marriage. She also knows that he is looking forward to these milestones of her, also.

I started have some deep thought on the issue of men and the women in their lives. When a man grows up in his mother's home he grows up knowing that his mother has expectations of him. "Keep your room clean, take out the trash, do good in school, etc.” He never understands that rather or not he lives up to his mother's expectations she will always love him. He is always afraid that if he fails, that love will be gone from him forever.

When a man marries his wife he sets up expectation during the courtship that she now expects from him. Once again he is in this cycle of “If I fail her expectations will she love me.” Of course the answer is yes she will love you.

But the relationship between a man and his daughter is much simpler, I think, than most people appreciate. His daughter offer for the first time in his understanding of life, true unconditional love. If he falls down she is truly concerned about her “Daddy”. She laughs at all his corny jokes with a full belly laugh. She tries to fix all his “boo boos”. His daughter will buck up to her own mother in defense of her “Dad”. When he comes home from a long trip away, she is the first one at the door screaming his name and jumping in his arms with Velcro hugs and all-over-face kisses.

This is what most men want from their mother’s. This is what most men hope to get from their wives. This is what good men get from their daughters. And we wonder why they cry like babies when their daughters leave them.

Friday, October 13, 2006

I am a nurse

I have finally did it. I graduated from North Dakota State College of Science and got my LPN license and moved to Arizona. I like it for the most part. At least it is not snowing in October. My job is awesome unlike most hospitals where the nurses eat their young, this one actually teaches you a lot of information and try to help you through the baby stage. The nurses here are great and pay ain't shabby either. I will write again about my adventure of getting here.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Thanksgiving and Family

Thanksgiving is the first Holiday in the Holiday season. I love this time of year. This Thanksgiving I went to my husband's cousin's house and brought along my nephew. We did have a blast this year. I know that family is one of the most important things that you can have in life. Money, fame or even prestige cannot hold a candle to family. Family love you no matter what is going on in your life. They are the ones that you can lean on. They are the ones that hold you up when you feel that you are sinking. They are the ones that will come down to gutter and get dirty to pull you out and clean you off. That is how I see family. It is lovely to look at the next generation of family and know that they have so much potential in life and to know that they are already builfing bonds that will last a lifetime.

Monday, November 07, 2005


When I was a young girl I never thought that I would be a mother. Now I cannot imagine being anything other than a mother. My children bring so much joy to my life on a daily basis. My oldest daughter is such a free spirit. She is always trying to help other people. Shw walks around with her head in the clouds seeing only the good in others. She is effervescent and beautiful. My son is agressively loving. When he hugs you know that you have been hugged. When he kisses, he tackles you then plants a long wet one. He makes sure that a person knows that they are loved by this boy. My youngest daughter is totally opposite of my other two children. She is a princess. SHe will tell you the what for and the why whether you asked her or not. I jealously embrace my time with my children. They are such a reason for living. I love to watch them learn new things in the world. Seeing their faces shine as they learn to tackle that math problem. Or the first time they go in the potty. I have seen three human beings grow from my arms to the world and I love every minute.